Kansas is just like sand in your toes

I love that Brenda brings back sand to put in Vicki's shoes. For some reason, it made me think of Mom's attachment to Kansas. I wonder if I had ever brought back a little Kansas dirt for Mom's shoes if that would have helped.

As for things I fear:

1. That something will happen to Jonathan. He travels a lot, and a lot of his work happens on bridges. I always fear someone will hit him. He wears bright orange T-shirts for a reason. I don't know what I would do without him. We've been together going on 10 years. We've shaped each other in the best way possible.

2. That something would happen to any one of my brothers and sisters. I've lived through it once, but I don't know if I could do it again, especially considering that all of them have kids.

3. Losing my hearing. One of my greatest joys is talking to people, listening to music, and hearing rain. Before my last ear surgery, I was scared to death that I wouldn't come out hearing. I was already one ear down.

4. Being in a bad accident. I didn't drive until college because I was so afraid to drive.

5. That a spider will bite me. Laugh all you want. I HATE spiders.

I can't no point of view of parenting. Give me a couple years and then ask me.

The Fears All Moms Have

In this book one of the characters "loses" her son for awhile, which is probably one of every mother's fear.  So I got to thinking about what sorts of thing I fear about parenting.  So ladies - what out there scares you (I stuck to parenting fears but feel free to expand on the topic)?

1.  My current biggest parenting fear is that when we have another child I won't love them as much as I love Chase.  I can't possibly imagine that I could love this much twice over but every mom I know says that it always works out.  Granted I hate to say it but I never really did comprehend how it would feel to be a mom until I was one so maybe I just can't comprehend how it would feel to be the mother of two yet.  I think feelings that strong are just hard to explain...

2.  I hate to say it because it is not very politically correct but I am terrified of having a chronically ill or special needs child.  I guess having a kid seems challenging enough without added difficulties.  I'm sure when you are faced with something like that you step up to the plate but the idea is scary.

3.  Twins...I'm sure that is all I need to say...

4.  Oddly the idea of being a single mother or raising a kid alone is also terrifying to me.  I rely on my husband, friends, and family to help out with my kiddo so much that I don't know if I could handle trying to do it all alone.

I guess this isn't the cheeriest of topics (neither was the other topic) but maybe it just isn't the cheeriest of books...